Episode 7: INTRODUCING MY HUSBAND!! Tinder success story, falling in love hard and FAST, and healing together

Happy Ordinary Love Tuesday!!! It’s been awhile, hasn’t it? I hope you are all well and had an amazing holiday season. I took an impromptu week off for the holidays, but I am back and ready for the new year!! This week is really exciting because I get to share the conversation I had with my husband, Bradley. This episode was filmed back in October for our dating anniversary, so think of this episode like a vault release lol.  

Join us as we discuss:

♡ Dating post-COVID and being a Tinder success story

♡ Our cringe dating app profiles

♡ The first date that never should have happened 

♡ Who made the first move

♡ How we went from “not wanting a relationship” to happily married in three years

♡ Falling fast and being 100% sure from the get go

♡ Whether or not we should still celebrate our dating anniversary

♡ How we found ourselves after past long term relationships and continued to grow together

♡ Traveling mishaps and mistakes

♡ Exciting plans for the future

…And more! 

Scroll down for episode transcript ♡

 

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Oh my gosh. Okay, so let me just I guess do an 
intro. Okay. Hi. No, no, let me Oh, okay. So,

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welcome back to another episode of Ordinary Love, 
a podcast where I sit down with couples and talk

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about their relationship and everything that makes 
it special and unique. Hi, I am the couple in this

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relationship. Obviously, I only have one other 
guest with me today. Yes. And I've been really

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excited about this episode just for an excuse to 
bring my husband. Hi. On the podcast and yeah,

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just talk about our relationship, which we 
love to do. Well, before we get before we

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get into the episode, why don't you introduce 
yourself? You know, I'm actually kind of I'm

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trying to test run something and maybe because 
when people when people ask or when I ask people

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to introduce themselves, they don't really know 
what to say. So, why don't you say your name,

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how old you are, and what you do. I am Bradley. 
I am currently 31 years old and I am the star in

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this beautiful marriage that we are in. That's 
his main occupation. I vibe at work at um Yeah,

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I vibe at Tesla. I hate when he says this because 
no one understands. What does that mean? I do

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vibration testing at work basically. Mhm. I don't 
want to reexplain anymore. Then he just goes into

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like a little Well, he works at Tesla and he's an 
engineering technician. Yes. And that's all you

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need to know. So, I hope you know that I have 
no plan for this episode. Oh, really? Julie,

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that's good cuz like I only skimmed through the um 
this the glossery the questionnaire is like just

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one time. Just that one time. Like months ago. 
Yeah. Yeah. I haven't even looked at it since

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then. So usually what we start with in these 
episodes just talking about our story. Just to

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preface we've been together for Okay. Actually 
this is a very special weekend because we are

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celebrating you know. Okay. Hold on. I can't I'm 
redo. But it is a special weekend because we just

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celebrated our four-year dating anniversary, 
which what I was going to say earlier before

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my brain went too fast is that we don't know 
if dating anniversary is like something that

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we will want to celebrate moving forward now that 
we are married. Yeah. Yes. Yeah. But but I mean,

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so we've been married for one year. Yes. We got 
married August of last year. Yes. And it feels

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like still early enough in our marriage that not 
celebrating our dating anniversary feels like a

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disservice. You know, we've been together four 
years. It's a long time. I feel like we should

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maybe not celebrate it. We I was like, where is 
he going? Why? Okay. Why? Okay. Okay. Okay. So,

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I know we talked about this when we did like right 
after the whole um proposal where we have like a

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lot of months, consecutive months where we're 
celebrating our our relationship and yes, it's

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a lot. Yes. Yes. It's amazing to have those kind 
of moments where we are. But it's a lot. Yeah,

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it's a lot, man. You know, it's a lot especially. 
It's a lot. It's currently 2025 and you know,

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inflations are pretty high right now. Yeah. you're 
you're you're financially well off right now. I'm

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financially struggling. Okay. So, what he's trying 
to say, what he's attempting very hard to say is

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that it is becoming a significant financial 
expense to keep celebrating because Okay,

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so background too is that our wedding anniversary 
starts off with your birthday starts off in July.

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Okay, I guess. Yeah. So my birthday is in July 
and then our wedding anniversary is August and

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then our proposal which I don't even know if 
people celebrate this but he proposed to me

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in September and then our dating anniversary is 
October and then his birthday is November and

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then December is Christmas. So if we were to 
celebrate everything that's the entire second

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half of the year. Why? How did we get here? I 
don't know. I don't know. So yes, um we've been

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celebrating for four uh we just celebrated our 
four years together. And so what did we do? What

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did we do today for our four year Well, okay. 
So our four year anniversary was on Thursday,

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but we celebrated today. Yes. And what did we 
do? We get a massage and we um got We just went

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to the spa. Yeah, we just went to the spa, did a 
little hot tub, little sauna to getting a massage

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to like pretty much just start our day today. Um, 
but on our actual day, we celebrated watching. Oh

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my god. The curious thing. Okay. So, on our actual 
anniversary, it was a Thursday and so I worked and

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you worked too, but like we worked pretty late 
until like 600, seven. Um, and then after Oh,

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it actually I didn't even work. I was sick. Yeah, 
you were sick. Got this this conversation with

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Yeah. Okay. So, he got me sick. I got her sick. 
Um, so I was actually sick on Thursday, but we had

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these tickets and I've been looking forward to it 
for so long. And so after he got home from work,

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we went to go see one of the BTS movies because 
it's BTS week. And which one did we see? We seen

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a BTS movie. It was the 2021 Festa Muster. Okay. 
Yeah. I knew a year. I just didn't know what the

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actual it was. Yeah, it was wild. It was nice to 
see because it was during co high time co so it

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was like um it was a virtual yeah it was a virtual 
concert where we just see a bunch of screens and

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people cheering and then just talking to them. 
So it really brought back to like the whole

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um time everyone was on Zoom. Yeah. Everyone's 
on Zoom. So anyways, why don't we start from

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the beginning because the story that we have is 
like on paper it's kind of like basic but it's

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actually kind of cute and there's so many things 
that like it shouldn't have happened. Yeah. Like

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the fact that we are sitting here married today is 
like kind of mind-blowing to me. Yeah. Cuz there

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are so many things that just like shouldn't have 
happened. Yeah. I think the cute thing about about

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our whole entire relationship is realizing how how 
compatible we were in a time where we wasn't even

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looking for a relationship. So what happened was 
is that we were both on the apps. This was like

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2021, like summer of 2021, right? So like things 
were just starting to open up again. We had,

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you know, like the entire year and a half of 
COVID behind our backs and just like desperate

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desperate to like meet people and stuff. Yes. But 
I had just gotten out of a long-term relationship

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back in 2020 and I had moved back here um to my 
hometown to live with my sibling who I interviewed

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a couple episodes ago. I was on the apps because 
you know I was kind of out of the dating scene for

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a while. Um and I wasn't really looking to like 
you know be in a relationship. I just wanted to

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meet people and I just wanted to kind of, you 
know, see what's out there. I hadn't really

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ever used the apps before because my long-term 
relationship before was like when we got together,

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it was before the dating apps, right? Um, 
which is I think the same for you. Yeah,

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definitely the same for me. So, anyways, that 
was my intention. And so, what was your intention

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being on the dating apps? No, very similar to 
yours. I just got off a long a very long-term

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relationship in 2019. By the time I got out of the 
relationship, like three months has passed by and

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we just got hit with COVID and everything start 
shutting down. So did like a whole like year and

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a half and just self-reflection and whatnot. So 
yeah, like you said, like towards the end of 2021

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when places started opening up, you know, society 
started booming up again. And so I I thought like

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I'll take the opportunity to, you know, just make 
more uh make new friends, uh find possibly maybe

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a relationship at some point and um just kind of 
kind of build a community for myself because by

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that time like I was still trying to figure out 
who who I am outside of this relationship that I

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just left. That is such a good point. I'm glad 
that you bring that up because I think that's

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something that we both were experiencing. Oh 
yeah. How long was your last relationship? Damn,

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I forget it already. Um, seven years. Me too. 
Was yours seven or like I think it was like

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seven dating 8 n I don't know. I'm going to say 
seven years. Yeah, mine was like Mine was almost

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eight I think. But it was like around seven. Yeah. 
Very long. Where basically like your whole life is

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that relationship. Your whole life. Yeah. Because 
your whole young adult life. Yeah. Like before the

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relationship, we were children. And then like 
as adults, we were forming adult um habits or

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characteristic with our identities with our 
ex at the time. And now that like you know,

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we're venturing onto a new chapter and it just 
seems like a new a new chapter of adulthood that

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you are fully unaware of and having to explore it 
by yourself now. Someone you have companion with.

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The big question that was on my mind was really 
just like who the hell am I if not like one

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half of this relationship. Yeah. That's what's 
nice about how we met because it was, you know,

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like a a year or so of just like figuring that 
out and like doing a lot of healing with Belle

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because I was living with my sibling at the time. 
Shout out to Christian cuz I was living with you,

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man. Yeah. So, it's funny. We both had that, huh? 
We both had like that kind of family support.

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Yeah. Family support where we can like, you know, 
feel safe and stable while figuring out who the

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hell we are outside of our long-term relationship, 
dude. Yeah. No, major shout out to um Christian

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for um giving me a space, a home um a place to 
like have me feel my emotions. Tearing up right

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now. I am not. Dude, she's lying. Dude, zoom in 
on that 4K. Yeah, these eyes ain't crying. Much

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love to Christian, man. Like, like I was able 
to have a space to just to grow and then he,

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you know, he helped cultivated like such a like a 
warm environment for me to be in. And then I came

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over and took him away. Sorry, Christian. 
I think about you every day. Me, too. Um,

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I'm taking that out because [ __ ] 
hate when you make jokes like that.

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So, we were both on the apps. This was 
maybe like the end of summer of 2021. Dude,

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just stop saying apps, man. Your readers are your 
listeners are going to be like, "What app?" Dude,

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we were just on Tinder, man. Oh my god. Shout out 
to Tinder. Shout out to the fiery love that Tinder

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have provided. Tinder, please sponsor me. Dude, 
I would 100% not recommend anybody doing that for

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like dating. We honestly was just the lucky ones 
out of it. Uh, I don't know. I've heard a lot of

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success stories from Tinder. I I haven't. I like I 
Okay, besides our own. I did not have any success

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on Hinge. I didn't use Bumble. I have a feeling 
that we we I seen you on Hinge and we definitely

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didn't match. So, you definitely What do you mean? 
You definitely I saw you on Hinge after we matched

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on Tinder. I think I forgot the timeline. 
We definitely matched on both cuz I remember

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seeing your hinge. I remember seeing your hinge. 
Okay. Okay. Okay. Okay. At this point, I think

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our timeline gets mixed up. We might have shown 
each other our hinge. So, that must have been it.

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Yeah. Cuz I don't know if I remember seeing you on 
Hinge. Something that I realized when I was on the

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apps in general was that two things. If you were 
going to open up with a pickup line, some people

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are into that. Some people are very into that. And 
that is okay. Not me. It makes me literally cringe

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like automatically. And this might be a hot take, 
but that's that's just how I feel. And if you just

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say, "Hey, damn." Like with no no effort at all 
into like starting a conversation because like I

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I as he found out, I am really good at keeping a 
conversation. You just have to help me a little

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bit, right? Oh my god. Yeah. So those were like 
my two rules, right? But at the time, this was

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like September, I think. Like hot girl summer was 
coming to a close. Cozy Girl Fall was starting.

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I think I just wanted like, you know, one last 
harrah. Does that make myself I don't know, man.

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I don't know. Okay. No, no, no. Okay. I'm just 
going to be real. I wanted one last harrah before

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cozy girl Autumn, and I matched with this cutie 
little thing right here. Hey. And that's exactly

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what he said to me. Hey. With a smiley face. Do 
you remember your first impressions of my profile?

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I do actually. Very outdoorsy and you're very 
cute. I initially forgot what your first picture

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was, but I do remember like you had some pictures 
where you were hiking in the snow and doing some

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yoga poses. Oh, and you had a picture of you in a 
pier and whatnot. So, to me, my first impression

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of you looking at these pictures and whatever the 
[ __ ] did you put on your caption? I don't even

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remember. Um, I knew Oh, I put that I like anime. 
Yeah, you did. You did. You did. You did. I don't

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even know what the [ __ ] I know. We talked about 
anime. Yeah. Yeah, we talked in our conversation

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before we went a lot actually. A lot. Um, so 
initially from what I could see, like someone who

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really smiles from cheek to cheek, especially just 
off like just you smiling in your pictures. You

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look, you know, you're not trying to look cool. 
I'm trying to remember what I like what I remember

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from your profile. I just remembered that you said 
you were from Hawaii. Oh, dude. No, my caption was

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like hella stupid, dude. Cuz like honestly, I 
was lazy, you know? I didn't want to like my

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whole Wait, do you do you remember what yours 
said? What was it? Um, basically um just swipe

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right and u message me if you want to find out 
more about me. Dude. Wow. Apparently it worked.

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Oh man. Dude, I had like a I literally hate that. 
I really don't remember what. Yeah. In the dude,

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maybe just because you were so cute. I 
think by then I was like trying to be cute.

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In the beginning I was like being very experime 
experimental. But okay. So he he he reached out

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to me saying hey with a smiley face and against 
all odds I responded surprisingly. Surprisingly.

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Yeah. Cuz I I truly like I wouldn't have if 
it was like a month before or something. But

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we ended up talking and he told me about how he's 
from Hawaii and at the time I like really wanted

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to move there. The reason I didn't is because of 
him ironically. But I was really trying to move to

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Hawaii. So I was asking him like, you know, what 
what was it like growing up there? I think I told

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you really early on that I was a therapist because 
I was like talking about like, oh, I'm, you know,

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tired from work or something. I don't know. And 
then we talked about a lot anime. I don't know why

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I said it like that. We talked about anime a lot. 
Yeah, definitely did. Um, it was nice getting to

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know the kind of animes that you watch. Actually, 
he was impressed by my my taste in anime. Yeah,

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dude. Like, you got me like Okay. Okay. Sorry. 
Getting kind of nostalgic right now. We talked

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a lot about animes, a lot of introductory life 
and like where we're from and like like you know,

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trying to figure out our hobbies so we can start 
planning things together. Yeah. I I think I was

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surprised at how easy it was to talk to you 
because like we would like talk about like

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five different things in the same conversation in 
the same conversation and then we would have like

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almost like bullets like kind of answering every 
single he would you were so attentive like you

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responded to everything that I like if you know 
even if it was like something small like you would

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respond to every single thing. For some reason, 
when I was just texting you, you brought like a

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very like quirky kind of like like happy tone to 
your to to what I can like, you know, imagine what

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your voice was in these texts. Yeah. Honestly, we 
do kind of text the same way that we talk. Yeah,

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we do. Yeah. I remember texting you at work and 
like at the time I was working in the factory and

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at Tesla, I will only have like 10-minute 
breaks in between. In the middle of work,

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I'll read her text and it's it's a lengthy text 
that we always send each other. So, like at those

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moments, I'll like keep in mind like what I 
want on text real quick. In those 10 minutes,

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I'll just like send like a whole paragraph. 
And like I will spend my break my breaks all

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the time replying back to everything that you 
have to say because I was super interested in

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in like just getting to know you. Like I Yeah. 
I have never felt very interested in in trying

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to figure out somebody else so quick. And like 
it's weird. It was quick. Yeah. It was It was

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weird. It was new and strange. It was like not 
exactly what we were like trying to get out of

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this. And it was just so easy. It was so easy 
to talk to you. Yeah, it was super easy. So

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that was like I think around one week that you 
know we were talking and then we're like, "Okay,

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like let's just let's just go on a date." And so 
we planned for a Thursday. Yes. Because why? Okay.

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I personally like like going out on a Thursday 
night. So I I like you you you wanted to make

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it happen on a Why? Huh? Why? Oh, just so I can I 
suffered from it. I I you did I like to do it on

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Thursday. So if it works out good, then I'll like, 
you know, like, hey, if you're free this week,

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if you're free this weekend, you know, maybe 
we can also hang out, you know. I did not know

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this. Is that what happened? No. Sorry. That's 
that's that's ex No. You and my you and my [ __ ]

0:17:51.280,0:17:57.120
plan. If we had gone according to plan. I know. 
So, we were supposed to meet on a Thursday. Um,

0:17:57.120,0:18:01.760
and I was so excited. I was getting ready for 
it. Um, and then I think like the day before

0:18:01.760,0:18:07.680
or something, he canled on me or he reschedled. 
Sorry. He rescheduled on me. It was the day of.

0:18:07.680,0:18:11.440
It was the day of. It was the day of the day of. 
Yeah. And he he texted me and he's like, "Hey,

0:18:11.440,0:18:17.440
like I'm so sorry. Like, can we reschedu? 
Yeah. Postpone this for next week because

0:18:17.440,0:18:21.520
of something with work." And I thought at that 
point, dude, like, okay. in the in the culture

0:18:21.520,0:18:27.360
and the fashion of like Tinder dating, we have 
to like get the women's attention real quick. Um,

0:18:27.360,0:18:31.920
women are in like this big pool of like see 
a man who, you know, flocking towards them,

0:18:31.920,0:18:36.320
right? You have like one chance. So, basically, 
he had something come up with work and it was like

0:18:36.320,0:18:40.400
unavoidable. Like it was, you know, the the excuse 
that you give when you don't want to go on a date,

0:18:40.400,0:18:45.440
but it was actually legit. I was kind of bummed 
about it, but like I didn't I wasn't like torn

0:18:45.440,0:18:48.720
up about it, you know? Like it was just like 
like it's fine. like we'll do it next week.

0:18:48.720,0:18:53.520
Which is also something that I wouldn't have 
done. Like if someone cancels on me, like I

0:18:53.520,0:18:57.760
just take that as like, oh, they don't actually 
want to. But like there was something about you

0:18:57.760,0:19:03.520
that like felt really genuine. Like I I knew that 
you weren't trying to like get out of anything.

0:19:03.520,0:19:08.480
I knew it must have been genuinely. Yeah. That's 
why I was like, "Yeah, whatever." Like it's fine.

0:19:08.480,0:19:12.160
I honestly felt like we weren't ever going to see 
each other at that point because like I know that

0:19:12.160,0:19:16.720
like you had already resorted to Yeah. Like I 
I thought like okay like I know when you first

0:19:16.720,0:19:20.720
cancel on somebody like you know it will be like 
the same like you had and that's totally valid

0:19:20.720,0:19:24.560
especially when you haven't met someone already 
like you know like why would I want to make effort

0:19:24.560,0:19:28.560
to see somebody that already cancelled on me once 
you know like is this going to be a habit or is

0:19:28.560,0:19:32.400
this something like I'm I have to get used to just 
you know getting to know this person. At that time

0:19:32.400,0:19:38.800
we were like doing this rotation of like every 
day um a group of like three people will um stay

0:19:38.800,0:19:44.400
after work and and you know do like an extra like 
3 hours worth extra worth of work because of like

0:19:44.400,0:19:50.400
um low manpowers. I I haven't been picked 
ever until that Thursday and it had to be that

0:19:50.400,0:19:54.000
Thursday. Oh you had never been picked before 
that Thursday and I was like ah what are the

0:19:54.000,0:19:58.960
chances of it you know? Oh god. Like so like that 
whole morning I've been like trying to tell my

0:19:58.960,0:20:03.600
boss I was like hey like you know I have something 
planned and um you know same excuse like any boss

0:20:03.600,0:20:08.960
got to give you know like hey so does everybody 
else what are you entitled for? God you know

0:20:08.960,0:20:14.560
I'm so happy he doesn't work there anymore but um 
anyways yes didn't happen. Yeah obviously but for

0:20:14.560,0:20:18.160
some reason we were still able to text somehow. 
Yeah we we texted for the rest of the week and

0:20:18.160,0:20:24.160
then you know the next Thursday came came and 
you know I went and picked you up. Are you cold?

0:20:29.360,0:20:37.440
So next week Thursday comes around and um I am on 
my way to pick up Karina for the first time. Super

0:20:37.440,0:20:43.360
nervous as always. So like to calm my nerves, I 
like to talk about like you know my my nerves to

0:20:43.360,0:20:49.680
people and my voice of comfort or who I always 
want to talk to at that time was Derek. So I'm

0:20:49.680,0:20:54.560
talking to Derek. I'm like, "Hey, Derek, um, I 
think I'm going to stop dating and, you know,

0:20:54.560,0:20:58.480
focus a bit more on myself as, you know, the 
holidays come, you know, the winter season's

0:20:58.480,0:21:04.640
here and be more of like ending the year on like a 
lot of more like self-reflecting a lot more like,

0:21:04.640,0:21:09.200
okay, what can I grow on for the next year? What 
can I focus on?" And, you know, Dererick is like,

0:21:09.200,0:21:13.040
"That's all good, man. You know, that's super 
cool. What are you doing right now?" And like,

0:21:13.040,0:21:17.440
I told Derek, "I'm heading to my last date. 
I swear." By the time that conversation end,

0:21:17.440,0:21:23.280
I was parked random from your apartment. I text 
you and um waited for you. I remember just me

0:21:23.280,0:21:28.080
being on my phone just leaning against my car just 
waiting for you. You popped up kind of like you

0:21:28.080,0:21:32.560
know stick your stick your face in front of my 
face. Yeah. And like with the biggest smile in

0:21:32.560,0:21:37.920
the world and I'm like hey are you Bradley? And 
I'm like uh yeah yeah yeah. And super nervous at

0:21:37.920,0:21:42.640
the time. And uh what I like to do when I get 
nervous I like to like poke a little bit fun.

0:21:42.640,0:21:47.840
So like I didn't even like open the door for you. 
You just you know assume like like the car I was

0:21:47.840,0:21:52.240
next to was mine. And so I remember you, oh my 
god, I forgot about this. So like I was like,

0:21:52.240,0:21:56.400
okay, let's, you know, let's let's head on 
going. So you open the door and I was like,

0:21:56.400,0:22:02.400
and then you're like, what? I'm like, oh, that's 
not my car. And I remember this and I was like,

0:22:02.400,0:22:08.240
oh [ __ ] Like I had a face like, yeah, like cuz 
why wouldn't I not assume that that was his car?

0:22:08.240,0:22:13.600
He was literally leaning on it. But it was your 
car. It was my car. It was my car. Yeah. I took

0:22:13.600,0:22:18.800
Karina out to a vegetarian restaurant and it's my 
first time ever choosing or going to a vegetarian

0:22:18.800,0:22:23.680
restaurant and till this date that was like the 
most poorest selection of restaurant that I could

0:22:23.680,0:22:28.960
have chosen of a pool of amazing vegetarian 
restaurant that we have in honestly like never

0:22:28.960,0:22:34.400
again you wouldn't have known. You wouldn't have 
known. I I offered I don't know if you remember

0:22:34.400,0:22:40.000
I offered a Korean barbecue place for our first 
date and you specifically like replied back like

0:22:40.000,0:22:45.360
did you not read my bio? And I was like I okay 
I didn't reply back after that. I went straight

0:22:45.360,0:22:49.120
back to your bio and I'm like I was about to 
double down with you like what the [ __ ] do

0:22:49.120,0:22:55.760
you mean read your bio? I looked at it like oh 
vegetarian. Yeah I am a vegetarian. Yeah. And

0:22:55.760,0:23:01.600
um I mean it was a it was a really nice it was 
a really nice gesture. It was thoughtful. Yeah.

0:23:01.600,0:23:09.760
And like the food it was it was fine. I think 
I tried spaghetti. Right. No you did. I got

0:23:09.760,0:23:14.480
spaghetti. Well okay. So I got like I got like 
curry or something like yellow curry. It's like

0:23:14.480,0:23:19.840
this like Asian fusion restaurant. But yeah, so 
we it's it was nice. Like the vibe was nice. It

0:23:19.840,0:23:24.080
was like this like outdoor little patio area. 
Yeah. I mean like all restaurants were outdoors

0:23:24.080,0:23:31.840
at that time. But like Okay. So something that I 
didn't know at the time is that you eat insanely

0:23:31.840,0:23:37.360
slowly and not because he's like a slow eater 
but because everything else just distracts him

0:23:37.360,0:23:41.760
from eating so much more. And this was like 
our first date, you know. This was our first

0:23:41.760,0:23:47.360
date. I can't wait for my friends to hear you 
say this because they all could relate to you

0:23:47.360,0:23:55.120
so much. At the time I was like eating right and 
I was noticing that he wasn't eating and I was

0:23:55.120,0:24:00.400
like I didn't know what to think about it. But 
then I didn't know you yet. You didn't know like

0:24:00.400,0:24:05.680
um but you not eating anything was actually 
very important to the rest of the date.

0:24:07.200,0:24:12.240
So, oh god, dude. No, no, 100%. Cuz like, dude, 
I just got off of work, dude. The last time I ate

0:24:12.240,0:24:17.600
was during my lunch time and that was like like 
9. Yeah. So, like at at the factory lunchtime was

0:24:17.600,0:24:24.720
at 9:30. Dude, I didn't This was like This was 
like 8:00 p.m. It's like 7 7 or 8:00 p.m. So,

0:24:24.720,0:24:30.880
you had not eaten and I was like, "Okay, I guess 
I won't eat all of mine." But it was good. Like,

0:24:30.880,0:24:34.240
other than that, like the conversation was 
good. We talked about van life, which you know,

0:24:34.240,0:24:38.080
I hope that when we listen back to this, we'll be 
on our van life journey eventually. That's one of

0:24:38.080,0:24:42.560
our goals. Yeah. Oh my god. That was like that was 
surprising actually that you were into van life

0:24:42.560,0:24:48.960
cuz that's not Dude, I I lit up like a [ __ ] like 
firework, man, when you when you just mentioned

0:24:48.960,0:24:54.240
van life because I thought like that would be like 
the most amazing thing to do when I when I find

0:24:54.240,0:24:58.560
a partner that like, you know, I that I want to 
settle down with. Yeah. I was like so surprised. I

0:24:58.560,0:25:02.640
was like, "No way." Because like that's not if you 
want to do van life and you're in a relationship

0:25:02.640,0:25:06.560
and the other person doesn't want to do it like 
it's not happening. It's not happening. Yeah.

0:25:06.560,0:25:09.680
100%. Either you're not going to be with that 
person or you're not going to do it at all. I

0:25:09.680,0:25:14.320
remember my heart just skipped a beat. Okay. Can 
we Okay. There's a lot of moments throughout that

0:25:14.320,0:25:20.400
date where I felt were like this is this is like 
a good recipe for like a good relationship. Things

0:25:20.400,0:25:26.720
are things are kind of lining up. Yeah. And I was 
super in denial. And you were too. Yeah. Yeah.

0:25:26.720,0:25:33.680
Yeah. We were in denial. Yeah, let's keep back in 
mind of like the nature of of oursel at the time.

0:25:33.680,0:25:36.560
We were just trying to have fun. We were just We 
weren't looking for a relationship. We weren't

0:25:36.560,0:25:41.440
looking for a relationship. So, after Okay, so the 
restaurant is kind of like downtown San Jose area,

0:25:41.440,0:25:45.760
right? So, we were pretty close to like where 
you know the the like you know where people go

0:25:45.760,0:25:52.240
out in downtown San Jose. So, we went to a bar. 
Yes. Um and like the the bar was also kind of a

0:25:52.240,0:25:55.680
restaurant. Like they had like tables, but then 
there was also like a little seating lounge area

0:25:55.680,0:25:59.440
where we were going cuz we just wanted to get 
drinks. We're in the corner. It was really cute,

0:25:59.440,0:26:02.400
really romantic. We were in the corner like 
we were just drinking beers. Oh my god,

0:26:02.400,0:26:09.120
the ambiance of that whole was like amazing, dude. 
Like, you know, low lighting, very lively. So,

0:26:09.120,0:26:15.840
it was like like white noise and like and 
then so we had like we had two beers. We were

0:26:15.840,0:26:22.400
both drinking hazy IPAs. Oh, no. I think we had 
three. Yeah. But during these beers, I was like,

0:26:22.400,0:26:27.760
you know, trying to send him signs. I was like, he 
was so nervous. I was trying oblivious. You know,

0:26:27.760,0:26:30.960
I would touch him here and there and like, 
you know, "Oh my god." Yeah. Do Exactly. Like,

0:26:30.960,0:26:35.040
"Oh my god." Yeah. Be like, "Oh my god." Yeah. 
And like I I was getting super excited of the

0:26:35.040,0:26:38.800
conversation that we were having and you know, I 
was getting kind of touchy because I'm getting a

0:26:38.800,0:26:43.120
lot of drinks in me and I was like, "Oh my god, 
dude." Like you you touch me back. Yeah. Yeah.

0:26:43.120,0:26:48.560
Yeah. Oh my god. I touched your face. And then and 
then he like grabbed my pal. I grabbed your face

0:26:48.560,0:26:53.920
like this and I thought he was going to kiss me, 
but then he didn't. And that was like very late

0:26:53.920,0:26:58.400
into the night already. And like in my head, I 
was going to drop you off home around like 10:00

0:26:58.400,0:27:03.520
p.m. cuz like I have work at [ __ ] 5:00 in the 
morning. Dude, we were out till I know you Yeah,

0:27:03.520,0:27:07.520
we were there till closing. Yeah, our our bar 
basically. Yeah, we were there till closing

0:27:07.520,0:27:12.480
because the bartender took a shot with us and he 
definitely knew that we were on like a first date

0:27:12.480,0:27:19.360
or something cuz then he brought he brought over a 
tequila shot. Yeah. Damn. that and and so imagine

0:27:19.360,0:27:26.720
that ruined this guy has not eaten in like almost 
12 I ate more than you and I definitely ate like

0:27:26.720,0:27:31.040
I had a whole ass meal the next day dude that we 
took over but he had not eaten for 12 hours. He

0:27:31.040,0:27:37.520
had three not just any beers but IPAs and then 
the bartender comes over and gives us a tequila

0:27:37.520,0:27:42.080
shot which is so funny because that ended up 
becoming our drink like a hazy IPA and a shot of

0:27:42.080,0:27:46.480
tequila that became like to this day too. I mean, 
whenever we want to like whenever we want to like,

0:27:46.480,0:27:52.080
you know, have like a like a kind of night out, 
that's how we start. Yeah. He gave us a tequila

0:27:52.080,0:27:57.040
shot. We took the shot and then we left and he 
still hadn't kissed me yet. And so I was like I

0:27:57.040,0:28:01.360
was getting him. I'm like, you know, at the time 
I was like, you know, I'm I'm pretty forward as

0:28:01.360,0:28:05.760
a person, but at the time I was like, dude, like 
this date is going on so well. Like where and I

0:28:05.760,0:28:12.640
was being super respectful to you right now. Like 
I I Okay. Okay. I Yeah, dude. Like at this point,

0:28:12.640,0:28:16.720
I did not want to treat you like any other like 
woman and everything. I was like, "Dude, this

0:28:16.720,0:28:22.000
is such a respectable woman right now." Like I I 
truly want to hang out with you. Like I like I was

0:28:22.000,0:28:27.600
s I was having so much fun just like just having 
conversation with you or like um just figuring out

0:28:27.600,0:28:32.000
like things that we can do together. And that was 
that got me super juiced just to know that like,

0:28:32.000,0:28:37.760
hey, maybe maybe I can hang out with her another 
day. And yeah. And then what happened? And uh

0:28:37.760,0:28:45.760
we were Yeah, we left. We're walking out going 
back to the car and um Karina was bold as ever,

0:28:45.760,0:28:50.800
you know, kind of like pushed me to the side of 
the wall. Did not do that. Looked straight to me

0:28:50.800,0:28:57.360
in the eye like, "Hey, man. Hey, man." He didn't 
kiss me. Well, basically, I just like he was We

0:28:57.360,0:29:01.280
were walking out. He was walking behind me and 
like I turned around like once we got to the like

0:29:01.280,0:29:06.880
the street, I turned around and I just grabbed him 
and I just kissed him. Yeah. And then it was Yeah.

0:29:06.880,0:29:14.240
magic. It was magic, you know. I was super drunk 
at this point and like but yeah, we were like not

0:29:14.240,0:29:19.920
sober by now. So, yeah, it was it was great. And 
I was like, "Wow." Okay, the unfortunate thing,

0:29:19.920,0:29:24.480
and this is why you don't have a date on a 
Thursday, but the unfortunate thing is that he had

0:29:24.480,0:29:30.560
work the next day at like 5:00 a.m. I had work the 
next day at like 8:30 or so. So, we had to call it

0:29:30.560,0:29:35.200
quits like before the night even like there was 
so much potential in that night that we just like

0:29:35.200,0:29:40.720
couldn't pursue. So, we got our Ubers back and I 
got home. Yeah. And then I ate the rest of my food

0:29:40.720,0:29:47.280
because I was so hungry. You went home and eat. I 
went home like feeling like I was on cloud nine of

0:29:47.280,0:29:52.640
just pure happiness. I'm like because like I I got 
to like a lot of bad days through Tinder. And I

0:29:52.640,0:29:59.440
thought like ain't no way the dating pool in like 
in this area is this bad. No offense Bay Area,

0:29:59.440,0:30:05.520
but like anyways, I was home. I went straight to 
my room. text you like uh like you know that that

0:30:05.520,0:30:10.240
I just got home you know like because that's the 
normal thing to do. I was literally like this in

0:30:10.240,0:30:16.800
my bed waving my toes texting Karina like I just 
got home and oh my god where have you been my

0:30:16.800,0:30:24.720
whole life I said that I I said that too. I said 
it first. You did say it first. He's lying. So he

0:30:24.720,0:30:29.440
was you know like like twirling his feet. Yeah. 
And then I texted him. I'm like oh my gosh like

0:30:29.440,0:30:34.400
where have you been my whole life? And that got 
him all curly. Yeah, hella curly. You end up going

0:30:34.400,0:30:40.720
to work. And then, okay, the next day I was so 
insanely hung over and I still went to work and it

0:30:40.720,0:30:46.320
was awful. But thankfully, I got off work at like 
at the time I got off work at like 4:30 or so. Um,

0:30:46.320,0:30:52.080
so I just went home and slept. He called in 
sick and I was like, "Bro, this is why I say

0:30:52.080,0:31:00.080
that I suffered because I had to go to work hung 
over. I don't do this anymore, by the way. Really?

0:31:00.640,0:31:04.640
We don't even drink that much anymore. We don't 
even drink that much anymore. Yeah. So, like I'm

0:31:04.640,0:31:08.640
like, you know, that morning I'm telling you like 
I actually called in sick. Um, hey, but do you

0:31:08.640,0:31:14.320
want to like maybe hang out like over the weekend 
and everything and I got rejected. You had plans

0:31:14.320,0:31:20.800
for that whole weekend to go out to like an event 
and I was bummed out because like kind of ruined

0:31:20.800,0:31:27.360
my my plans, you know, from Thursday dating. Well, 
if I had known your plan, I would have. I know you

0:31:27.360,0:31:32.480
should have. But yeah, I had a festival to go 
to that weekend, so we couldn't hang out. And I

0:31:32.480,0:31:37.600
don't think the next time we hung out was was that 
Tuesday? Oh, yeah. Cuz like, you know, I really

0:31:37.600,0:31:43.760
wanted to see him again after. And what did we 
do? We decided to go uh roller skating. Oh, yeah.

0:31:43.760,0:31:48.400
Completely sober. Completely sober because um we 
wanted to like, you know, reintroduce ourselves,

0:31:48.400,0:31:52.080
get to know each other more in a sober aspect. 
And I thought like that was like one of the most

0:31:52.080,0:31:57.600
healthiest way to like reconnect after like having 
Is that Roller Ring still or did it close? I think

0:31:57.600,0:32:02.320
it closed down just recently actually. That was a 
really good day. We went roller skating and then

0:32:02.320,0:32:06.160
we found out more about each other like Yeah, we 
like spent a lot of time just like sitting in the

0:32:06.160,0:32:10.160
car afterwards just like sharing music from 
then on. Like we've been kind of like a bit

0:32:10.160,0:32:17.360
inseparable. Yeah, we went like mini golfing. We 
went to like more restaurants. More restaurants.

0:32:17.360,0:32:25.200
Uh we went hiking a lot. Um Oh yeah, we So we went 
on this hike in Santa Cruz at the Garden of Eden.

0:32:25.200,0:32:30.880
Shout out to those who know where that is. Um 
it's kind of like a little creek river thing,

0:32:30.880,0:32:38.480
but there's like a little swimming hole. And so 
he prepared like a lot of food for a picnic and

0:32:38.480,0:32:43.600
um I brought paints cuz I like to paint. So we 
had a picnic and we painted and it was lovely.

0:32:43.600,0:32:49.520
It was amazing. We we brought wine. I made um 
sushi and at this point Yeah. Vegetarian. Yeah.

0:32:49.520,0:32:56.320
At this point like you know I am a bit more well 
informed of like like how food is prepared for

0:32:56.320,0:33:00.720
like you know being a vegetarian. So I remember 
just getting up early and my family was visiting

0:33:00.720,0:33:09.680
our place and I remember just um making sushi um 
mush Oh yeah and um stuffed mushrooms as well to

0:33:09.680,0:33:14.400
prepare prepare for the date. So I brought that 
over. You brought the whole um painting supplies.

0:33:14.400,0:33:19.440
Uh I remember we decided to trek to the middle 
of that swimming hole because there there was a

0:33:19.440,0:33:23.920
small island. So like we were carrying all our 
stuff in our backpack while going through like

0:33:23.920,0:33:28.240
a whole backpack in like canvases. Yeah. Walking 
through the water and and just decided to paint

0:33:28.240,0:33:34.640
and have a bit of a picnic there. I almost fell 
and like you know floated down the river. I like

0:33:34.640,0:33:39.760
tripped and fell like when we were crossing the 
river trying to get to the Wait, I know cuz like

0:33:39.760,0:33:46.000
we were when we were done painting we had to like 
carry Yeah. Cuz like our canvases were Yeah. Yeah.

0:33:46.000,0:33:51.840
But Oh my god. Yeah. But from that point on, we 
were seeing each other every weekend. Honestly, we

0:33:51.840,0:33:55.840
keep saying that we were there to like, you know, 
hanging out so much, but that was only like a few

0:33:55.840,0:34:00.800
weeks. Yeah. Before we started like, you know, 
before we started like, you know, dating dating.

0:34:00.800,0:34:05.840
Yeah. It's funny cuz we went there today. We went 
to the spa today, but he took me to this like spa

0:34:05.840,0:34:12.000
in Palo Alto um that has like hot tubs and like 
massages and cold plunges and stuff like that. But

0:34:12.000,0:34:19.120
he just rented out a room that had a hot tub for 
an hour. Hot tub. Was it just hot tub? Uh hot hot

0:34:19.120,0:34:23.680
tub and like sauna. Yeah. Yeah. Cold. No, didn't 
have a cold plan this time. I I think this was

0:34:23.680,0:34:28.880
like the day that we were basically going to like, 
you know, call it official with each other. Well,

0:34:28.880,0:34:33.200
no, we didn't know that at the time. It was just 
another date. Honestly, it was just another date.

0:34:33.200,0:34:39.520
But what made this date special was that while we 
were like, you know, in this like romantic spa,

0:34:39.520,0:34:44.400
um I told him that I loved him. And it was like 
really hard for me to say actually cuz I was like

0:34:44.400,0:34:48.320
[ __ ] terrified. And it's funny because with the 
whole the whole dating thing, I think we were like

0:34:48.320,0:34:52.960
very in denial, like you know, trying to fall 
each other with each other like super fast. Um,

0:34:52.960,0:34:57.600
we had it was really fast. Yeah, it was really 
fast and we had we had our walls. We had our

0:34:57.600,0:35:03.040
reasons to like not like like I'm not trying to be 
in a relationship right now. Like it was a lot of

0:35:03.040,0:35:08.720
accepting of wanting to fall down, take that risk, 
take that risk and fall, you know? But I think

0:35:08.720,0:35:15.440
something that um like I came to realize really 
quickly is that there's always a risk, right?

0:35:15.440,0:35:21.680
There's always a risk of getting hurt. And I think 
this is like, you know, what makes it's what makes

0:35:21.680,0:35:26.720
dating nowadays so hard is because everyone's 
so scared to get hurt. And I think we definitely

0:35:26.720,0:35:33.440
felt that too. But I am a pretty unsure person, 
you know, like I have to get second opinions on

0:35:33.440,0:35:39.040
a lot of things. But like with you, I was never 
like it like it truly felt like the risk one, the

0:35:39.040,0:35:44.080
risk is worth it. So like if I were to get hurt 
from this, you know, one, I knew that you were

0:35:44.080,0:35:48.080
just a good person. You know, by this time I knew 
that you were a good person and I knew that you

0:35:48.080,0:35:54.560
wouldn't like hurt me. If it ended up not working 
out, I couldn't see it being because you were a

0:35:54.560,0:35:58.880
bad person or that you would like intentionally 
try to hurt me. Like I felt very safe with you.

0:35:58.880,0:36:04.720
Me telling you that I loved you like literally two 
or 3 weeks after we met it. I think it was scary

0:36:04.720,0:36:10.000
because I was so sure about it and it was so fast. 
Like I was scared because I was like, "Is this

0:36:10.000,0:36:13.360
even real? Is it even possible to fall in love 
with someone this quickly?" Yeah. You know, but

0:36:13.360,0:36:20.080
it felt so so natural. So natural. Yeah. It just 
felt super natural. It It felt like um normally

0:36:20.080,0:36:25.280
you don't get that kind of like experience where 
you're like, "Wow, this is literally everything

0:36:25.280,0:36:30.400
checks out of my box, man. Like this is some this 
is this is truly someone I can see. I can stand

0:36:30.400,0:36:35.280
by proudly side by side. This is someone I would 
love to just hang out with. This is someone that I

0:36:35.280,0:36:40.800
know my mom, my parents would be proud of to have, 
you know? It just felt like what could go wrong,

0:36:40.800,0:36:45.840
you know? Like Yeah. Like what could actually go 
wrong? Yeah. Like the risk was worth well worth it

0:36:45.840,0:36:50.800
knowing that like how could it fail, you know? 
Like Yeah. It was funny actually because like

0:36:50.800,0:36:55.920
so one of the first times that we hung out with 
each other um I had asked him I was I was like,

0:36:55.920,0:37:02.000
"Hey, are you seeing anyone else?" And he was 
like, "No." Oh. And I was like, and I was like,

0:37:02.000,0:37:09.600
only you, girl. And I was like, well, I am. I was 
like, oh, good. Okay. Yeah. He's like, oh, yeah, I

0:37:09.600,0:37:15.200
am, too. And then like I I think that was like the 
like the first time I ever lied to her. I think I

0:37:15.200,0:37:18.960
was like, you know, I was like casually seeing 
like a few other people. And then I told him,

0:37:18.960,0:37:22.320
I'm like, you know, I don't actually think I want 
to see anyone else. I think I just want to see

0:37:22.320,0:37:28.560
you. Oh god, dude. And he was like, what do you 
remember your reaction to that? I at that moment

0:37:28.560,0:37:33.280
I knew like there's truly nothing to hide from 
you. Yeah. Like I hid I hid the fact that I was

0:37:33.280,0:37:39.360
talking to other women, but you didn't. And like 
just me knowing how open you were like that really

0:37:39.360,0:37:44.560
set the stage and tone like how I would want this 
relationship to be or like around honesty. Yeah.

0:37:44.560,0:37:49.280
Around honesty. And and it really became that way. 
Yeah. Like I would just I will tell you things.

0:37:49.280,0:37:52.720
Now you're like too honest. Yeah. I'm way too 
honest. Like I would tell her things I know she's

0:37:52.720,0:38:00.320
gonna get mad. of like like hey love um I bought 
this. That's yeah that's it. That's all that's

0:38:00.320,0:38:04.960
all. Look at this. I know you don't like it when I 
do this but here I'm doing this. You know that was

0:38:04.960,0:38:09.840
something that was surprising to me because I was 
like I don't want to see anyone else. I remember

0:38:09.840,0:38:13.840
you mentioned that you were going to delete the 
apps like after our first date or something you

0:38:13.840,0:38:18.000
were to delete the apps and like that didn't 
scare me. I was like, this whole thing was just

0:38:18.000,0:38:22.560
surprising to me. And I think that's what made it 
scary. It was because it was surprising, but like

0:38:22.560,0:38:28.080
I also felt very solid. And so when I said that I 
didn't want to date anyone else, I didn't expect

0:38:28.080,0:38:31.280
you to stop dating other people. I was just 
telling you, I was like, I don't want to date

0:38:31.280,0:38:35.760
anyone else. Like, but like you don't have to. You 
don't have to also stop dating other people. No,

0:38:35.760,0:38:40.000
100%. I mean, like just because you did it doesn't 
mean I have to do the same thing. But like when

0:38:40.000,0:38:46.240
you when you were openly enough to like mention 
all that, I I thought it was very brave of you to

0:38:46.240,0:38:53.040
um want to make that statement. This girl right 
here like I love hang love hanging out with um is

0:38:53.040,0:38:56.880
willing to like you know be a bit more exclusive 
with me and of course I'm going to respect you the

0:38:56.880,0:39:03.280
same way and and want to do the same way too. So 
I you know I I followed your steps. So yeah like I

0:39:03.280,0:39:07.680
had told him that I loved him and then it was like 
you were waiting for me to say it. Like it was so

0:39:07.680,0:39:14.160
nice. He like you felt it. Yeah. I mean, we felt 
it. We felt it. We felt it. I definitely wasn't

0:39:14.160,0:39:19.680
like planning on like doing any like first steps 
or whatnot because I was super scared of like

0:39:19.680,0:39:27.280
rejection, not going to lie. Mhm. Because like I 
can just feel myself just like slowly like giving

0:39:27.280,0:39:31.920
myself up to you. And I think how at that time 
I was kind of just scared of my own like like it

0:39:31.920,0:39:36.720
took me like it took me like a good like five or 
more minutes just to like cuz I was just standing

0:39:36.720,0:39:39.600
there or sitting there cuz we were in the hot 
tub. I was like sitting there and I was just like

0:39:39.600,0:39:45.760
I have to tell you something and then like silence 
and he was you were so patient and waiting for me.

0:39:45.760,0:39:50.640
Dude, remember I tried I was going to say I love 
you at that Irish club. Oh my god, you're right.

0:39:50.640,0:39:55.920
And I was like okay. You stopped me like don't say 
it. I know. I'm like don't say it. Okay. What did

0:39:55.920,0:40:02.480
you say? I also said, "Hey, there's something I I 
want to tell you." And I was like, "No, not yet."

0:40:02.480,0:40:08.480
That's why you let me because I I actually didn't 
let you. Like, yeah. You're like, "Stop it." Okay.

0:40:08.480,0:40:13.040
This was like a week, though. This was like a week 
after. Yeah. I I feel like I was like I was like

0:40:13.040,0:40:20.640
still trying to come to terms with my feelings. 
Anyways, so after the hot tub spa, I went over

0:40:20.640,0:40:27.520
to your place and we watched Squid Game, right? Oh 
my god. It just came out. Um uh we were preparing

0:40:27.520,0:40:34.000
dinner. So we're making a vegetarian version of 
chicken katsu which is tofu katsu. So tofu katsu

0:40:34.000,0:40:38.720
and curry and curry was so good which we still 
make to this day. So then that was the day that

0:40:38.720,0:40:43.920
we decided to be our anniversary. And then the 
next day we went to that Van Go museum and Van Go

0:40:43.920,0:40:48.640
like installation thing. It was a really special 
Yeah. A special day. A lot a lot of the moments of

0:40:48.640,0:40:54.480
our early dating uh stages really like cultivated 
the kind of aspect our relationship was heading

0:40:54.480,0:41:00.320
into. Like a lot of it were like, you know, being 
able to appreciate art. A lot of it were like to

0:41:00.320,0:41:07.360
appreciate nature. Nature and traveling. Traveling 
was huge for like the first year, but yeah,

0:41:07.360,0:41:12.000
travel ended up being like a pretty like huge 
thing. Like in the first year that we were dating,

0:41:12.000,0:41:20.720
we went to uh we were doing a whole lot of um 
traveling outside of the Bay Area. Yeah. Um,

0:41:20.720,0:41:31.120
we did Monteray, we did Big Sir, Pismo. When did 
you ask me about Italy? So, um, it was Valentine's

0:41:31.120,0:41:37.360
Day, so I decided to take you out to, um, Napa 
Napa Valley. So, in California, that's that's

0:41:37.360,0:41:44.400
the very Yeah. wine country, the vineyards over 
there. And so, we were driving up to, um, Napa

0:41:44.400,0:41:48.400
Valley. And at one point I think I asked you the 
question like if there was a place that you would

0:41:48.400,0:41:53.520
want to travel where would you want to go and you 
were like Italy. And then we just looked at each

0:41:53.520,0:42:01.040
other like like you down you down. Mind you this 
we had been together for three months. No October,

0:42:01.040,0:42:04.160
November, December, January. Four months. Four 
months at this point. Four months. He had spent

0:42:04.160,0:42:08.640
the holidays with my cuz it so his family lives in 
the in Hawaii. I was going to say the Philippines.

0:42:08.640,0:42:14.240
I know. His family lives in Hawaii and so he ended 
up spending the holidays with me which and my

0:42:14.240,0:42:19.040
family which you know was pretty cool. Shout out 
to the family. It was kind of like a pipe dream.

0:42:19.040,0:42:22.160
We were just like, you know, like we've only been 
dating for like four months. Like we're not going

0:42:22.160,0:42:29.840
to go on this like international trip together, 
but like why not? Why not like entertain the like

0:42:29.840,0:42:35.600
idea? Dude, after the whole Valentine's, we kind 
of just sat down and like really digest like what

0:42:35.600,0:42:40.560
can we do to make this happen on your birthday? 
Yeah, knowing that your birthday's in a few months

0:42:40.560,0:42:46.800
and we're planning this two week international 
trip. I remembered we just bought the tickets.

0:42:46.800,0:42:53.520
We started planning this whole thing and before 
we knew it, we were heading to Italy. Yeah. Kind

0:42:53.520,0:42:57.520
of like flew by hella quick to be honest. I have 
no idea how that happened, but we we went to Italy

0:42:57.520,0:43:02.640
for a week. We started in Milan and then went 
all the way back down to Ron. Yeah. 10 days or

0:43:02.640,0:43:08.800
something. Italy was huge because like we realized 
that we travel really really well together. You

0:43:08.800,0:43:13.840
could be compatible in everything else, but then 
you could just like not travel well together.

0:43:13.840,0:43:18.800
Yeah. And um Oh my god, we make the most awesome 
team when it comes to traveling. I think we also

0:43:18.800,0:43:23.280
like fill in each other's gaps. Yeah, that's what 
I'm trying to say. I think something that we both

0:43:23.280,0:43:29.040
have is that we're very uh spontaneous. Like we 
don't care too much about food. We just like walk

0:43:29.040,0:43:33.520
down the street and try to find Love that. So, we 
have the same idea when it comes to like what kind

0:43:33.520,0:43:37.440
of venture we want to have. So, like just being 
able to be like, "Yeah, let's go eat around this

0:43:37.440,0:43:42.640
area." Yeah. And um which actually is kind of hard 
to do in Europe because like a lot of the places

0:43:42.640,0:43:47.760
you need a reservation, but like if you need a 
reservation, you just go to a different place, you

0:43:47.760,0:43:52.880
know, and like some of the best food that we've 
had were non-reservations. Was non-reservation

0:43:52.880,0:43:57.920
like literally walking around the city. Yeah, that 
was that was a really good trip. That was really

0:43:57.920,0:44:02.240
good. Yeah, it was a really good trip. Yeah. And 
then what what was we went to Greece after? Yeah,

0:44:02.240,0:44:05.920
we went to Greece for my birthday later on that 
year. Yeah, we were celebrating your birthday

0:44:05.920,0:44:12.880
there and so we went to Greece like July was 
Italy and we went to Greece in November and I

0:44:12.880,0:44:17.680
think somewhere in between we went to Mexico City 
or was that after? It was after that was after it.

0:44:17.680,0:44:23.760
That was after Well, we also went to Mexico City 
at some point. Um, so we we basically traveled

0:44:23.760,0:44:28.000
a lot like at least in like the first year of 
our relationship. Like almost like every year

0:44:28.000,0:44:33.200
relationship. I think the only year that we didn't 
No, we travel for every year we have. Yeah. If it

0:44:33.200,0:44:37.680
wasn't traveling to like a different country was 
traveling to Hawaii a lot to meet your family and

0:44:37.680,0:44:42.480
be with your family. We went to Hawaii like three 
times this year. Yeah, we went to Hawaii a lot.

0:44:42.480,0:44:47.360
But yeah, so our whole relationship is based on 
like being adventurous. We just want to be able

0:44:47.360,0:44:53.600
to experience the world as as we live live through 
it. And um yeah, if we're not like traveling like

0:44:53.600,0:44:59.200
via airplane, we like to camp. Yeah, we love 
to camp. We love to um also do a lot of like

0:44:59.200,0:45:03.680
the snowboarding now that we picked up together. 
Yeah, snowboarding was fun. Yeah, snowboarding was

0:45:03.680,0:45:07.840
so fun learning together with Yeah, cuz we both 
didn't know anything about snowboarding. Like I

0:45:07.840,0:45:14.000
I can't stress enough how good of a team that we 
are together and like it shows up a lot in our in

0:45:14.000,0:45:20.400
different ways. Yeah, we will always like face 
issues. Um we always flexible. We are flexible.

0:45:20.400,0:45:25.520
Super flex. We're Oh my god. Yeah. How did How 
did we forget that word? We always say that,

0:45:25.520,0:45:29.600
too. No. Okay. You know why? Very adaptable. 
Should we talk about the story? What story? So,

0:45:29.600,0:45:34.320
you know, one of the times that we realized that 
we're really, really adaptable. Camping. Yes. So,

0:45:34.320,0:45:37.840
was it our first camping trip together? It was our 
first camp. So, our first camping trip, I'm going

0:45:37.840,0:45:43.520
to roast you a little bit. So, our first camping 
trip, um, we went to Sequoia National Park and

0:45:43.520,0:45:51.920
King's Canyon. So Brad has a Tesla as you know so 
so predictably has a Tesla Bay Area tech tech and

0:45:51.920,0:45:58.880
so you know Teslas are an electric car obviously 
and we were going to use his car cuz I have a

0:45:58.880,0:46:05.200
leased car so like I only have a certain amount 
wait no sorry I had a little car. Yeah, I had a

0:46:05.200,0:46:09.600
very little car with a tiny little engine and so I 
was like, I don't really know. I don't really know

0:46:09.600,0:46:13.520
if like this is a car that I could take camping 
like in the mountains and so we were just going to

0:46:13.520,0:46:20.560
take your car and like my one request of you was 
to check to see if there were chargers in the area

0:46:20.560,0:46:26.080
and he told me that there were and so I was like 
great. So we packed up the car. Sequoa is like

0:46:26.080,0:46:33.600
what like four or five hours away. Um and it's not 
easy to get to. It's not like okay what's a pine

0:46:33.600,0:46:37.760
for example? Pinnacles is like a national park 
where it's like very up in the mountain. You kind

0:46:37.760,0:46:41.840
of get there and like you're there. You don't have 
to drive around. But Sequoia and King's Canyon,

0:46:41.840,0:46:46.880
they are two separate national parks. So, you 
do have to drive a bit to get to one park to

0:46:46.880,0:46:53.360
another. So, we get there and I'm like, "Bro, 
the charger that you saw wasn't a supercharger.

0:46:53.360,0:46:58.240
It was like one of those chargers that takes 
like all night." Yeah. And there's only one.

0:46:58.240,0:47:04.720
There's only one one up there in the mountain. And 
I I can I can continue this story. So like yeah,

0:47:04.720,0:47:09.360
I was tasked to find if we were able to charge 
in between it all and my perspective like how far

0:47:09.360,0:47:14.960
apart these these chargers are were like Yeah. I 
didn't really think about it too too hard honestly

0:47:14.960,0:47:19.200
because like when And the charger was an hour 
away. Yeah. I didn't think about like the amount

0:47:19.200,0:47:24.560
of things that we're bringing and how high I'm 
driving up. So like Oh yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So like

0:47:24.560,0:47:30.000
a lot of factors played in a role where like I I'm 
not going to have enough charge for like a whole

0:47:30.000,0:47:34.560
lot of things. So like realistically when we got 
there by the time we got to our camping spot I was

0:47:34.560,0:47:40.560
like very low charge. I have enough charge just 
to go to the next charging area and that's away

0:47:40.560,0:47:46.400
from the national park and I was going back into 
the city. So that next morning we made a we made

0:47:46.400,0:47:52.720
a really hard decision a hard decision and and 
call it like hey let's let's just get a rental.

0:47:52.720,0:47:59.920
Mhm. So, we left all our camping spot things at um 
at the spot and we drove down to get a to Oh, we

0:47:59.920,0:48:05.600
drove down to charge. We drove to a rental area. 
We just left my car at the rental spot. So, we

0:48:05.600,0:48:10.400
we rented from Fresno airport because that's the 
closest city. And when you rent from an airport,

0:48:10.400,0:48:14.480
there's like, you know, parking. There's parking. 
So, we just like left the car there and we rented

0:48:14.480,0:48:20.560
a Tacoma. Yeah. Which, you know, kind of sucked 
because it like we wasted the entire day cuz like

0:48:20.560,0:48:27.040
Fresno is not close. like it's like at least like 
a few hours. And so we drove back with our new car

0:48:27.040,0:48:31.600
and then we just like, you know, enjoyed the rest 
of the camping trip. But like it was frustrating,

0:48:31.600,0:48:38.400
but like for us to like figure out what to do 
considering that like there was only so much

0:48:38.400,0:48:41.680
that you can do. There was only so much that we 
could do. Like it was already done. Like we were

0:48:41.680,0:48:46.000
already there with the Tesla and we had to like 
figure something out. Like every time we we run

0:48:46.000,0:48:50.640
into something like that, we're able to like keep 
our head on our shoulders and like try to figure

0:48:50.640,0:48:56.160
something out like like we understand what's most 
important to us like in those moments. For me,

0:48:56.160,0:49:00.960
what I would say is um during that time this is 
our first camping trip. Let's make this the best

0:49:00.960,0:49:05.120
as we can. What are we willing to do? You know, 
like what are like what kind of boundaries are we

0:49:05.120,0:49:10.400
okay with? And with the limited option, we just 
like okay to make this the most important thing,

0:49:10.400,0:49:14.800
we do have to sacrifice oursel to do all this. 
Yeah, we do have to sacrifice those like few

0:49:14.800,0:49:18.960
hours because like what else are we going to 
do? Extra money to do so and being okay with

0:49:18.960,0:49:24.880
the mistakes that we we we have I have done. 
We've we've I've made mistakes too. Yeah. No,

0:49:24.880,0:49:29.360
100%. We all make mistakes but then like we don't 
we look at each other like oh my god and like

0:49:29.360,0:49:35.360
hold it against you. Bad bad person. Yeah. Like no 
we're like okay like okay like what do we do now?

0:49:35.360,0:49:40.560
Yeah. How can we resolve this? Like okay do do you 
understand this is an issue? I understand it's an

0:49:40.560,0:49:46.640
issue. Okay. You do. Okay, we'll we'll talk about 
this later. Let's handle the situation now. Handle

0:49:46.640,0:49:51.520
the situation and we make space for it later on, 
too. And it's very comforting knowing that like

0:49:51.520,0:49:55.680
we're not like attacking each other at all. Like, 
oh my god, you're so stupid. Like, why do you do

0:49:55.680,0:49:59.840
this? Instead of like attacking each other during 
that moment, we're like remedying like there's

0:49:59.840,0:50:03.680
you're making no progress. It's not Exactly. 
It's not productive. Yeah, it's not productive,

0:50:03.680,0:50:07.520
dude. Like, if I'm going to yell at you like how 
like oh my god, you're you're so [ __ ] wrong.

0:50:07.520,0:50:10.800
Why the [ __ ] you did this? We could have been 
doing this. We could have been doing there. Like,

0:50:10.800,0:50:15.120
dude, that's like 3 minutes of like of us wasting 
time being unproductive where we could have spent

0:50:15.120,0:50:19.280
3 minutes of literally trying to figure out 
figuring this [ __ ] out, man. Should we talk

0:50:19.280,0:50:24.880
about then like how do we handle conflict and 
stuff? Because I think like something that I'm

0:50:24.880,0:50:32.000
proud of is how we communicate. Yeah. Something 
that I learned about you really early on is that

0:50:32.000,0:50:38.640
you're such an understanding person. Oh, thank 
you. You as well. I try to be. Yeah. Yeah,

0:50:38.640,0:50:44.400
like if I could describe anything that I felt 
towards you, especially in the beginning,

0:50:44.400,0:50:50.080
is like safe. Like you just make me feel really 
safe. Thank you. And so like I never felt like

0:50:50.080,0:50:56.080
I had to like I I could always tell you how I was 
feeling and you were always on the receiving end,

0:50:56.080,0:51:00.880
you were always like very like gracious like, 
"Thank you so much for telling me, you know,

0:51:00.880,0:51:06.400
thank you so much for sharing that with me. Like I 
can tell that that was really hard." You just make

0:51:06.400,0:51:11.440
so much safety that makes it easy for me to tell 
you things. That's never that's never a fear of

0:51:11.440,0:51:17.920
mine that I'm gonna like I'm gonna like upset you 
with how I feel. Okay, give me a wa right now. But

0:51:17.920,0:51:24.160
uh dude, like Okay, I can talk about how much that 
makes me feel good inside. Well, I mean, thank

0:51:24.160,0:51:29.120
you, by the way. I don't know. Kind of lost the 
words for a bit, but um yeah, I told you that. No,

0:51:29.120,0:51:33.600
I know. But it just it still feels nice to hear 
it, you know, and I I feel the same way with you.

0:51:33.600,0:51:38.960
like um I feel very comfortable enough to express 
like you know the mistakes I made. Um I feel very

0:51:38.960,0:51:44.320
comfortable in like being able to express whatever 
situation comes by. I mean we've been in a lot of

0:51:44.320,0:51:51.440
situation where like let's just say remember 
that one time we were uh at like Comanche Lake

0:51:51.440,0:51:55.920
Comanche for the first time where I got you where 
we're using your paddle board for the first time

0:51:55.920,0:52:01.600
there. Yeah. Remember I got my car stuck there 
with the rock. Yeah. Yeah. So context. So,

0:52:01.600,0:52:07.120
we went to this lake that I grew up going to and 
we brought his Tesla. This is a recurring theme

0:52:07.120,0:52:10.400
actually. We just shouldn't take your car to like 
outdoorsy things. That was like the last time we

0:52:10.400,0:52:16.400
ever did actually. We got stuck. So, like he 
back he backed into I backed into a rock and

0:52:16.400,0:52:22.560
and my and the rock was like like really raised 
up and I was like it was on my um my side skirt

0:52:22.560,0:52:29.040
of my vehicle and it really dug into there and um 
basically his car was stuck like his tires were

0:52:29.040,0:52:34.240
up in the air. Yeah. So basically, um I was trying 
to get some help. So I asked like a bunch of like

0:52:34.240,0:52:39.120
these bunch of people that were like super drunk 
like, "Hey, can you guys help us out?" And um they

0:52:39.120,0:52:43.040
wanted to do it one way where like it's going to 
be damaging to my car. They basically wanted to

0:52:43.040,0:52:49.040
pull it from where the tires were like up in the 
air. They wanted to pull it out, but then that

0:52:49.040,0:52:53.360
would like literally scratch the entire bottom of 
the car. So the direction where they would want to

0:52:53.360,0:52:59.200
pull my vehicle would cause like my whole entire 
battery to be like super damaged at this point.

0:52:59.200,0:53:05.120
And um and I wasn't willing to like pay for all 
that. And they were being very aggressive in like

0:53:05.120,0:53:09.600
wanting to do it their way because they believe 
there were the it was the right way. Oh my god.

0:53:09.600,0:53:12.400
It was and he was just like I don't want to do it 
that way. And and then they were just like they're

0:53:12.400,0:53:15.680
just like fine then we're not going to help. Yeah. 
Dude, they're being very aggressive. It was so

0:53:15.680,0:53:21.040
annoying. It was like we'll help you but only on 
terms where like we were able to see this amount

0:53:21.040,0:53:27.040
of destruction and I wasn't down for it at all. 
And dude, they're like it really upset you. Yeah,

0:53:27.040,0:53:32.000
I was really upset because background I'm a I'm 
a mechanic too. I have a degree in automotive and

0:53:32.000,0:53:36.960
whatnot blah blah blah. And like these guys were 
like throwing up like excuses like we know better

0:53:36.960,0:53:41.600
because I am a mechanic and like their their 
partners were like their girlfriends was like

0:53:41.600,0:53:46.480
he knows how to he knows cars more than anybody. 
He works on it every day so he knows what's best

0:53:46.480,0:53:52.960
for the vehicle. I kept quiet about myself. 
I didn't want to be like me too. I genuinely

0:53:52.960,0:53:58.880
like I don't know how he did it. If it was me, 
I would have been like, "Shut okay." Cuz okay,

0:53:58.880,0:54:04.160
I could have easily said like, "Hey, I'm a 
mechanic, too." And and if you are a mechanic,

0:54:04.160,0:54:08.880
you know how bad this [ __ ] is. Kind of thing. 
But what was I going to get out of it? Honestly,

0:54:08.880,0:54:12.400
like if I were going to like, you know, you 
know, put my chest out and be like, "Hey, I am

0:54:12.400,0:54:18.000
a mechanic, too." That would not solve anything. 
I would rather listen to that other guy who was

0:54:18.000,0:54:24.400
nice enough to help us out, who tosses cars for 
a living. I can work on cars all day. I know how

0:54:24.400,0:54:29.120
to work on cars, but do I know how to properly 
tow this vehicle out with the limited supplies

0:54:29.120,0:54:37.280
that I have? No. But okay, so what happened 
after we were What the point of the story? Um

0:54:37.280,0:54:42.960
um yeah, what I forgot you were talking about 
feelings. Oh, no, no, no. Um it's it was through

0:54:42.960,0:54:47.440
that whole situation where we looked at each other 
and like we were both following each other's lead.

0:54:47.440,0:54:51.840
what I'm trying to say. Um, we were being good 
teamwork where we were not trying to like be

0:54:51.840,0:54:56.400
the more aggressive type in that situation. We 
weren't trying to like pick fights or anybody

0:54:56.400,0:55:02.960
like we were holding each other's ground. We were 
getting each other's back. Yeah. I honestly I was

0:55:02.960,0:55:07.440
getting really activated by the whole thing and 
I you know me I would have gone off but I think

0:55:07.440,0:55:11.120
it was your thing so I was trying to follow your 
lead. You know you were trying to be the bigger

0:55:11.120,0:55:16.320
person. and you were trying to like stay calm 
and I was like, "Okay, like if I blow up here,

0:55:16.320,0:55:20.320
that's actually not that's going to make things 
so much worse. Like it's going to stress you out.

0:55:20.320,0:55:24.400
You're going to have to like deal with me now on 
top of dealing with all these other people." Yeah.

0:55:24.400,0:55:28.960
So like I like moments like that where like I was 
looking at you like where you're at and then you

0:55:28.960,0:55:33.280
you look calm. You're you looked at me and we just 
looked at each other. It was just like a feedback

0:55:33.280,0:55:37.920
loop like a positive. We were just like calming 
each other down. It felt small but I guess like

0:55:37.920,0:55:42.800
it felt Yeah. like like the teamwork around that 
like it happens in the most smallest areas and

0:55:42.800,0:55:48.400
the most biggest areas. I am curious if I can ask 
you a question because I have an answer for this

0:55:48.400,0:55:55.840
question but like what is something that I helped 
you heal from cuz I have something that you helped

0:55:55.840,0:56:02.160
me heal from. Oh wow that's a really good one. Uh 
dude everything from my past. You helped me heal

0:56:02.160,0:56:07.600
from like what I assume what a relationship is. 
Not trying to like put down my past relationship,

0:56:07.600,0:56:14.320
but like I believe my ex and I can agree that we 
were definitely both being toxic with each other

0:56:14.320,0:56:20.800
because we both had like a um our own self pride 
or ego in that relationship would caused us to

0:56:20.800,0:56:28.800
like you know have such um toxic environment and 
um during those times um that was my views of like

0:56:28.800,0:56:34.640
what it means to be a relationship or like like it 
was just that's just how relationships are. Yeah.

0:56:34.640,0:56:39.440
And um like you know how like how like the bar 
was like so low when it came to like how thankful

0:56:39.440,0:56:43.760
I was for like even the smallest things that you 
you're able to do for me. Okay. Literally I would

0:56:43.760,0:56:48.400
like sometimes I would like plug in your phone or 
I would like get you water and you're like that's

0:56:48.400,0:56:53.120
so nice and I'm like what do you mean? Yeah. I 
still to this day I still think it was very nice.

0:56:53.120,0:57:00.240
My view of what it means to be in a relationship 
was changing every moment being with you. And

0:57:00.240,0:57:06.080
I thank you so much for being so patient with me 
because like I had a lot of insecurities in myself

0:57:06.080,0:57:10.240
that I didn't realize I had until I was getting 
into the relationship. I thought I was, you know,

0:57:10.240,0:57:13.520
being able I thought like just being being on 
my own, I was able to heal like these moments,

0:57:13.520,0:57:19.520
but I never thought like it it made a lot more 
sense like I was only able to heal when I'm with

0:57:19.520,0:57:24.880
somebody in this relationship because it takes 
two to heal when it comes to like anything like

0:57:24.880,0:57:30.800
reparative. Yeah. Yes. Correct. Oh, he's so well 
spoken. He must be the husband of a therapist. Oh,

0:57:30.800,0:57:35.760
how might be? Huh? Yeah. Learn very well. No, 
that's that's so true though. You can do as

0:57:35.760,0:57:41.600
much healing as you can, but like there are only 
things that are going to come up when you're in

0:57:41.600,0:57:46.960
a relationship with someone. Yeah. You you gave 
me so much space and so much time to grow within

0:57:46.960,0:57:51.760
that. And I thank you so much because just now 
just talking about just realizing how much growth

0:57:51.760,0:57:57.440
it has been since then and the amount of like 
trust I have for you, the amount of comfort I

0:57:57.440,0:58:02.880
have for you and like just where my mental my 
mental um health is at right now is so much

0:58:02.880,0:58:08.720
different. I'm like able to like, you know, sleep 
so soundly at night and go about my day without

0:58:08.720,0:58:14.080
like having like a thought in the world where your 
skin has cleared. Oh, I know. Oh, yeah. He used to

0:58:14.080,0:58:20.640
get really bad um acne breakouts. Uh not stress. 
Yeah. Stress. It's been lovely. Yeah. It's been a

0:58:20.640,0:58:25.520
lovely journey knowing what it mean what it means 
to be in a healthy relationship. Partnership.

0:58:25.520,0:58:34.240
Partnership. Mhm. Well, for me, something that 
was like I had to learn was that I could be

0:58:34.240,0:58:41.840
accepted like without having to change anything. I 
think something that surprised me was how I guess

0:58:41.840,0:58:49.680
accepting you were like things that, you know, 
maybe I felt embarrassed about. I don't know. I

0:58:49.680,0:58:56.160
just felt like to be in a relationship meant to 
like like lose parts of yourself, if that makes

0:58:56.160,0:59:01.920
sense. I'm a huge fan girl, right? I am a huge fan 
girl. And it's not that I'm ashamed of that part

0:59:01.920,0:59:09.120
of myself, but like I um I don't really share that 
with a lot of people because it's like it's a lot.

0:59:09.120,0:59:14.000
Um I I'm just I'm just really passionate. Like I'm 
passionate about the things that I'm passionate

0:59:14.000,0:59:19.520
about and that's a lot. I'm passionate about a 
lot of things. I've always toned that down. I've

0:59:19.520,0:59:24.400
also been like I've struggled with like body image 
stuff, mental health stuff, and I like don't like

0:59:24.400,0:59:31.920
talking about that very much. But you've always 
been so like just accepting of things that like I

0:59:31.920,0:59:37.280
otherwise would have been ashamed about or I don't 
like talking about. I think I've learned how to be

0:59:37.280,0:59:44.400
like my full authentic self with you and I don't 
think I've ever gotten to do that ever. And so

0:59:44.400,0:59:52.240
I'm a very introverted person. I cannot be around 
someone for too long before I like my battery goes

0:59:52.240,0:59:59.120
out. Same like that. But like you like I always 
I always think about you just like being like

0:59:59.120,1:00:07.200
an extension of me. And so when we're together it 
doesn't feel like I'm socializing. Yeah, dude. Oh

1:00:07.200,1:00:11.520
my god. Like I can't stress enough like how much 
you make me feel that way because I also like have

1:00:11.520,1:00:17.040
like a very low um social battery. Social battery. 
Like let's just say like let's just say like if

1:00:17.040,1:00:20.640
I'm hanging out with somebody for x amount of 
time, dude. Like I'll like there's going to be a

1:00:20.640,1:00:26.320
point where like I'm just going to like just sign 
off and like have like no emotional attachment to

1:00:26.320,1:00:29.680
like whatever conversation that you're just going 
to stop being you're going to like log off. You're

1:00:29.680,1:00:33.360
going to go offline. Yeah. I'm not trying to be 
present at all like in in this sense. And like

1:00:33.360,1:00:38.880
that's the time where like I got to go home. And 
with you, I have never to felt that. Yeah, dude.

1:00:38.880,1:00:43.920
Like it just felt like I was hanging out with 
myself. Actually, like, hey, I need like a like

1:00:43.920,1:00:48.240
you just talk out loud or you think out loud. And 
I think I think out loud, too. You do. And then

1:00:48.240,1:00:53.360
we just respond to our We just responds to our 
thoughts. But like majority of the time we're in

1:00:53.360,1:00:57.280
the same wavelength. We're like, "Are you tired?" 
Like, "Hell yeah." It's like, "Dude, want to take

1:00:57.280,1:01:02.240
a nap? Hell yeah." Yeah. Like, "Are you trying to 
go home right now?" "Hell yeah." Yeah. Do you want

1:01:02.240,1:01:09.120
to skip today? Yeah. you. It's like um something 
that we say a lot is like, "Hey, so like hear me

1:01:09.120,1:01:18.480
out. I'm down. Like, hear me out. I'm down, but 
I'm also down to stay home." Bet. Hell yeah.

1:01:18.480,1:01:23.680
Hell yeah, brother. Come and come, 
baby. Come. Come, baby. Come,

1:01:23.680,1:01:30.320
baby. Come. Stop being weird. Sorry. 
But yeah, stop being weird. But yeah,

1:01:30.320,1:01:34.160
you edited that out. Yes. I wasn't going 
to keep it. Never mind. We can cut that

1:01:34.160,1:01:44.400
[ __ ] out. But yeah. No. Okay. Give me 
a dirty kiss, baby. No. Throw the camera.

1:01:44.400,1:01:52.160
Okay. Rapid fire time. Okay. Okay. I'm going to 
ask us two questions. Fire away. What is one thing

1:01:52.160,1:01:56.960
out of the many things? What is one thing that you 
really like that we bond over? [ __ ] that's hard.

1:01:56.960,1:02:00.400
Okay. Um, I don't know. There's a lot of things, 
actually. There's a lot of things. There's a lot

1:02:00.400,1:02:06.000
of things. I love how we were like I I love how 
we bond over like snowboarding as a sport. I love

1:02:06.000,1:02:12.800
that we bond over free time. I love that we bond 
over um anime together. I love that we bond over

1:02:12.800,1:02:18.720
um how much how the amount of free time that we 
want to spend with each other. What do you mean?

1:02:18.720,1:02:23.440
Like, oh my god, I can't wait for this weekend so 
we can spend time with each other. Oh, oh my god,

1:02:23.440,1:02:27.840
we can't hang out. They can't can't wait till we 
hang out and do things together kind of thing. You

1:02:27.840,1:02:35.760
okay? I love how we bond over outdoorsy stuff like 
camping. Camping is so much fun and snowboarding.

1:02:35.760,1:02:39.280
I'm just gonna be like vague so I can like 
encapsulate a lot of things. So like camping,

1:02:39.280,1:02:43.920
snowboarding, van life eventually, you know, just 
like being outside, things like that. I really

1:02:43.920,1:02:50.960
like how we bond over that. And I really like how 
we bond over food. Okay. Since this relationship,

1:02:50.960,1:02:54.800
we're not much of a foodie people, but we just 
love eating. We I know we're not really foodies,

1:02:54.800,1:02:59.840
but we love to eat. Yeah, we love to eat. We love 
to eat. Like we eat so much, I dude. Like um I

1:02:59.840,1:03:05.040
don't like cooking a lot, but like I find that 
I love being able to make my favorite food into

1:03:05.040,1:03:11.920
vegetarian. Yeah, vegetarian. Super cool. I love 
Filipino seasick so much. A lot of my friends know

1:03:11.920,1:03:16.880
that. Oh, can you make that this week? I actually 
am. I added I added on to our grocery list. One of

1:03:16.880,1:03:20.240
my favorite things. Oh my god, dude. Tofu seas. 
Dude, one thing I also like found out about

1:03:20.240,1:03:26.000
relation this relationship is how organized Karina 
is and how organized my life is right now. So like

1:03:26.000,1:03:30.160
we have like this notes thing and like oh my god 
it's so cool. If you guys have an iPhone and you

1:03:30.160,1:03:37.920
guys use notes being able to maximum the usage 
of notes in a relationship is god god honestly.

1:03:37.920,1:03:43.120
So we have this joint note. It's literally just 
called grocery list and we plan our meals. So

1:03:43.120,1:03:47.200
like we have a little Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, 
Thursday, Friday and then we got like meal ideas

1:03:47.200,1:03:51.440
for next week. Yeah. So then we list our meals and 
then we make our grocery list from those meals and

1:03:51.440,1:03:55.360
we both add to it since we're both on like we 
collaborate on it. Yeah. We both collaborated

1:03:55.360,1:04:03.600
on it. But okay, one more question. Why don't we 
each take our turn describing like a typical day

1:04:03.600,1:04:06.720
because we have a lot of typical days, right? But 
you can you can describe one and I'll describe

1:04:06.720,1:04:12.080
one. Okay. And uh typical day. Well, let's say 
let's choose our busiest day out of the week and

1:04:12.080,1:04:17.440
let's be Tuesday. Diligently like I would like 
to say I wake up at 5:00 in the morning. He does

1:04:17.440,1:04:23.760
not. I did to go gym sometimes. Yeah. Yep. Okay. 
I wake up in the morning. Um, I get ready for work

1:04:23.760,1:04:28.720
basically, you know, shower, prepare my lunch 
and all that. Um, normally I would walk Quincy,

1:04:28.720,1:04:35.600
but you have taken a role for that. So, I, you 
know, say my goodbyes, scadal straight to work.

1:04:35.600,1:04:40.320
Yeah, he always leaves to work and I'm still 
in bed. In bed. So, um, scading my way to work,

1:04:40.320,1:04:46.160
working another nine hours of my day. um 
leaving work, heading to Muay Thai practice,

1:04:46.160,1:04:53.520
and then I'm heading right home, right on home to 
um prepare dinner because on Tuesdays, which the

1:04:53.520,1:04:57.920
day I'm describing right now, you are in your 
group supervision. I have a group consultation

1:04:57.920,1:05:03.120
group that I meet with for two hours every 
Tuesday. Yes. And and it it coincides to where

1:05:03.120,1:05:06.800
it starts right after um you're done with work, so 
you don't really have time to make dinner. Yeah,

1:05:06.800,1:05:14.160
I don't. By the time I get home, it's like 7:30. 
Um preparing dinner for both of us. And um by then

1:05:14.160,1:05:21.280
I am sitting down having a one piece watch party 
um with the boys and Kylie. Okay. So maybe I can

1:05:21.280,1:05:29.280
describe a weekend just like a typical weekend. So 
usually let's say in the morning we get to sleep

1:05:29.280,1:05:33.680
in a little bit. I always sleep in more than he 
does. Even if he he gets to sleep in, he wakes

1:05:33.680,1:05:38.880
up pretty early. Yeah. My sleeping in is like me 
getting out of bed at 7. Yeah. So then he usually

1:05:38.880,1:05:44.640
wakes up and walks Quincy and then by the time 
that he gets back, I'm usually awake. And then we

1:05:44.640,1:05:48.240
go to Sometimes we go to brunch. Yeah. Sometime 
we go to brunch. Sometimes we go to brunch.

1:05:48.240,1:05:52.160
Sometimes I go to a workout class. Yeah. You go to 
workout class. Um and then we go to brunch. We go

1:05:52.160,1:05:58.000
to brunch. Um and then you know sometimes we'll 
go out to like we like going to the bookstores

1:05:58.000,1:06:04.000
together. So sometimes we'll go to a bookstore or 
we'll go like walk around somewhere like you know

1:06:04.000,1:06:09.920
or something. enjoy the day. Yeah. You mean like 
at Campbell downtown, take a walk to um to the

1:06:09.920,1:06:14.720
farmers market? Yeah. To the farmers market, buy 
some honey. Um and then we'll come home and we'll

1:06:14.720,1:06:20.240
probably like rot for like a few hours. What we 
like to call vegging. Vegging. Yeah. Sometimes we

1:06:20.240,1:06:24.800
hang out with the house. Like sometimes we watch 
a movie or something with Belle and Leslie and

1:06:24.800,1:06:31.200
then I make dinner and then Yeah. Yeah. And then 
we we're probably in bed by like 10 10 p.m. Dude,

1:06:31.200,1:06:36.400
we've been in bed like lately around 900 p.m. 10. 
I know. Because we've been sick. We've been so

1:06:36.400,1:06:41.040
sick. It's been lovely. Honestly, like I honestly 
like Yeah, I'm missing the outdoorsy for a bit,

1:06:41.040,1:06:45.040
but like the rest it's been been wonderful 
just being able to wake up and feeling very

1:06:45.040,1:06:48.880
well rested and knowing that I'm going to get some 
more rest later on the day. I know. I'm excited

1:06:48.880,1:06:53.360
for um like just the fall weather because it's 
finally getting cooler and we can finally go on

1:06:53.360,1:06:59.520
hikes again. I know. So, like I love that we have 
our seasonal activities. Mhm. So, during the fall,

1:06:59.520,1:07:04.400
I know we try to hike as much. During the winter, 
we're snowboarding a lot. Um during spring is

1:07:04.400,1:07:09.520
where we We're still snowboarding, I think. 
In spring. Yeah. Until like April. True. Yeah.

1:07:09.520,1:07:14.080
Right. Actually, but then we do try to rest. Fall 
and spring we try to rest because in the summer

1:07:14.080,1:07:18.640
we go camping. Yeah. Summer we go a whole summer 
and winter is like very filled with camping. Wait,

1:07:18.640,1:07:22.560
fall we actually go on like a trip usually. Last 
year we went to Japan and this year we're going

1:07:22.560,1:07:29.040
to Thailand. Yeah. Okay, to close things out, what 
is something that you are excited for? I'm looking

1:07:29.040,1:07:36.960
forward to us living in Japan a lot. I feel like 
I'm about to live a long time fantasy that I had

1:07:36.960,1:07:42.400
for like more than half my life to be honest. I've 
been infatuated with Japanese culture like since I

1:07:42.400,1:07:48.160
was very young. Like very young. There's a lot of 
things to be excited like before and after that,

1:07:48.160,1:07:53.360
but like to live like another lifelong dream that 
I get to experience together with you is something

1:07:53.360,1:07:59.040
I am really excited about. Yeah. Yeah. Next is 
definitely the van life. That's what my answer is

1:07:59.040,1:08:03.840
going to be. I'm so excited for van life. While 
we're living abroad, we are hoping to save some

1:08:03.840,1:08:09.680
money um because it's like so much cheaper to 
live abroad than it is anywhere else in the US,

1:08:09.680,1:08:15.920
especially California. But um we're hoping to 
save up some money so that we can buy a van and

1:08:15.920,1:08:21.600
you know just travel around the US for a year. 
Um I'm so excited for that because like honestly

1:08:21.600,1:08:28.720
like traveling the US is expensive having to like 
fly and like you know um find hotels and stuff. I

1:08:28.720,1:08:32.800
never feel like enough time when you're actually 
traveling because you're always in like one thing

1:08:32.800,1:08:37.680
I don't like about like being in vacation is like 
you only have like a small small portion of a

1:08:37.680,1:08:43.120
window where you can travel and like you're kind 
of just forced to like constantly spend all the

1:08:43.120,1:08:49.280
energy in the world to fill up your entire entire 
day just to make the most of it cuz end of the day

1:08:49.280,1:08:53.200
dude you're spending thousands of dollars trying 
to get trying to like you know make the best out

1:08:53.200,1:08:56.720
of this out of this slow travel. That's what we're 
trying to do is we're trying to slow travel. Slow

1:08:56.720,1:09:01.200
travel. Yes. like really experience experience 
and you know it feels like a full circle because

1:09:01.200,1:09:04.480
like you know our first date we talked about 
van life and we're finally going to do it and

1:09:04.480,1:09:10.160
we're and and living abroad. We did talk about 
that too. So very much so very we have a lot of

1:09:10.160,1:09:16.800
things to look forward to but thank you. Thank 
you for being so great. Whatever you but thank

1:09:16.800,1:09:22.240
you so much my love for taking the time. Um he 
was so nervous about today. I'll say yes. Yes

1:09:22.240,1:09:26.720
I was. Yeah. But you did so great and all the 
other times that you stuttered. I'm just going

1:09:26.720,1:09:33.120
to edit it out. Did I stutter a a lot? No, I did 
her. Sorry. But that's all for today's episode.

1:09:33.120,1:09:37.760
Thank you so much for listening and watching if 
you're still there. Um this has been Ordinary

1:09:37.760,1:09:45.200
Love. We'll have new episodes every other Tuesday. 
Um I am Karina again and you can follow us. Oh,

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you you want to Oh, I want to be part of it, too. 
I'm Karina and I'm Bradley. And um he's not he's

1:09:52.000,1:09:58.720
not a co-host, but he wants to pretend that he 
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